I'm really choked up right now. I just finished having a nice, cleansing cry. Some of my tears were for seeing the Masters of Mayhem leave to be spayed/neutered and on to wait for their forever homes. The rest of my tears, were allocated to Tweetie.
As we often see, the kittens we rescue during TNR, aren't always easy to socialize. Some are flat out wild beasts who will only be tamed over a long period of time, if ever. Because we don't have the time to socialize each kitten, we have to choose which are candidates for placement and release the ones that will simply take too much time in foster care to turn around.
It's the part of doing rescue work that I don't care for. I know the kittens who are released will have a harder life. At least they'll have good health and a caregiver to start with. The rest is up to them. I'm a big softy. I admit it. I want ALL the kittens to get a good home and not have to live under a fallen tree or under someone's shed, but it certainly beats being in a cage in a shelter, where they will slowly go mad, never be adopted for being too fractious and end up being euthanized.
So up until this morning, I was mentally preparing myself to be okay with Tweetie being released in the next week. He's getting neutered today, then evaluated, then probably returned to where he was first trapped. His old home base.
Then I got a short email. It was from Sockington's owner, Jason. Whose famous cat looks like he's Tweetie's father. He asked if he could possibly help little Tweetie and then...everything changed.
I realized it would be wrong to release Tweetie, when he has so many friends rooting for him. That perhaps, this one time, this one kitten's story of learning to love, might be worth telling. I spoke with our Director and we had an uncomfortable conversation, which, thankfully, blossomed into understanding and a little "bending of the rules."
Tweetie was slated to be ear-tipped today, just in case he ended up being released. It would prevent him from having additional sedation and stress, but I asked to cancel the procedure, worried that it would effect Tweetie's chance of being adopted. In our give and take, I offered to cover the medical expenses should Tweetie need to be ear tipped at a later point and instead of being evaluated by the Director just now, Tweetie is going to be released...
...to me.
This is going to be tough, but I need to give it a try. Tweetie is going back into my bathroom. He'll be on his own, without his siblings. "Tough love" may help turn him around. I'm going to give him the time he needs—which may be months, but I'm going to stick by him and with any luck, one day I'll be writing about Tweetie getting adopted.
This is very risky. Tweetie could end up not turning the corner, then we'll have to release him, but at what point? If he gets too old-even 6 months, he'll be harder to place and I can't have Tweetie in my bathroom forever.
For now, I'll be writing about Tweetie's journey to find his love for people and and my struggle to help get him there.
NOTE: I just created a special Twitter page for Tweetie. You can follow his "Tweets" here
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I'm so happy you get to work
I'm so happy you get to work with Tweetie more! I'd be willing to bet that many people who learned about him through Twitter became aware of the issues around feral cats and their caretakers for the first time. The more people who understand TNR and make the connection that feral cats start out as fuzzy little kittens with the deck stacked against them, the better. It's going to be lots of work, but just look at Sockington - he was abandoned in the subway and now he's living the good life!
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Thank you for the insight, Anne! Yes, that does make sense. Being in the trenches, I don't realize that not many other people understand that it takes a lot of work of many people to get these feral kittens to a point where they ARE good animal companions. I hope Tweetie's story does shed some light on this problem.
All of us want the best for each and every kitten and we do our best, but we can't effect change unless we let people see the ugly truth that's part of the equation.
:::::crossing fingers:::::: things will go all right for Tweetie. He's due back soon from his...eek...neutering!
Narda won't let me get
Narda won't let me get another kitten until June Bug goes to the Rainbow Bridge. She's 19, arthritic, with thyroid issues, and has become the biggest purring softie around, and she used to be a skittish gal. LOVE can do wonders.
We adopted Quincy beast at 8 months, if not a little older - I'm not so sure, but ANYTHING's possible.
One thing I DO KNOW? Tweetie will get OODLES of love from you.
ANd man, how I want to adopt fluffy - and yeah, that's SO the wrong name. But goodness, is my heart melting!
That's the right thing to do
Shelli,
You have enough on your plate with such a busy household. June Bug deserves peace and quiet and I'm glad she's become a softy. We have a former feral here, Cricket, and though we can't pick him up or get him to the Vet without big trouble, he's come so far in 5 years. He loves belly rubs and attention and this was a cat who I got to turn around from being a psycho feral. He had flat ears, hissing and spitting when I first got him. It took many months, but the first purr I got out of him made me cry with joy and relief.
I don't want to spill any beans...but I had a similar thing happen today, actually...wink wink, nudge, nudge...with another fractious kitten. :-D
Stay tuned and thank you for being truly a fantastic and loving and supportive person! Narda is lucky!
P.S. Some day, years from now, if you ever need a kitty, you know I can hook you up, too! No worries about that!
You
You are the most amazing person I have shed a tear with today. I am so happy for Tweetie that he has you and I will send some vibes his way for love and good behavior. It can happen and with you there with him, I am sure it will!
That's very kind of you!
Tweetie is doing great. If you read the other chapters in the Tweetie Chronicles, you'll see his happy ending (which continues even today). Thanks for visiting us!
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