...I toss and turn. I'm still in the throes of doing my blasted taxes. I'm in a foul mood. I don't see the sense in wasting days of my life, adding up countless receipts because when it's all said and done, I probably won't owe any taxes and I won't deserve a refund. So why bother?
Last night I did a home visit for DRNA. They posted a message about needing help here in Newtown, so I offered. Along with my home visit, I had to fill out a very comprehensive form, detailing my visit. It made me realize how little we ask of our own adopters. We certainly don't do a home visit and we only ask that they don't declaw the cat and have their other animals up to date on vaccines and wellness exams. That's about it.
After the home visit, which went fine, we stopped at the grocery store to buy cat litter. Who should I run into but the dad and two sons of the family I adopted Donner & Dancer to. In the guy's hands was a stack of canned food-the cheapest, most awful crap you can imagine. It was 20 cans for $7; full of grain and mystery meat products. I almost screamed.
I did my best to be friendly about it and he said he didn't know how to tell it had grain or not and I reminded him that he can't buy grain free in a grocery store-which also pisses me off. Why can't you get good cat food at the grocer? At least you can't get it around here. There wasn't anything I could do. I said I'd send him info and he bought the crap food.
Once home, I sent him a long email with links to cat food resources and a discount code. I could not sleep. I kept thinking about how awful this was and that they said Dancer was still very scared-probably because there are two rambunctious boys in the house. I imagine her cowering in fear and growing into a messed up adult. I want to think the best of these people, but I really f-cked up. I should not have adopted to them, but the deed is done. I can't go get the cats when I don't have a great reason to do so. Now I fear the cats will become fat and unhealthy and I wonder if they will even keep up with Vet visits? Will they even keep them indoor only, as promised?
I'm sick about this. I know it could be worse. Even two of my best friends, who adopted from me two years ago, feed crappy cat food and the cats are chubby but they are loved so very much. They seem to be content in their home and maybe that is enough?
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first off, thank you for a
first off, thank you for a Spencer picture.
Secondly - NO ONE will live up to your standards. It will never happen. No one would never live up to mine, either.
But the G-d's honest truth? Those are probably VERY VERY VERY loved furry babies.
And that is worth more than all of the raw diet we could give them.
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I can certainly feel for you Robin! Maybe honesty is your best option - call the adoptive family (or better yet, meet them face-to-face) and explain your fears. I think you are more than justified in your concern after seeing the new "dad" buying cheap, not-so-good for kitties cat food. It would at very least let the family know that you mean business about conditions required for an adoption! (and "scare" them into providing better food for them!).
As far as the kitty being scared - it is still a very new situation for her and most likely she will adjust in a week or two. I adopted my Vinnie cat almost a year ago and he is still very scaredy cat whenever something new happens in the house - maybe a little more time is all she needs. (as long as you are sure she is being well taken care of and that the rambunctious ones aren't being too "in her face" for her to adjust.
You have done a wonderful thing for these kitties - you literally SAVED their life, so you have a right to know that they are loved and cherished! You owe it to yourself to get an answer: )
You are my hero crazy cat lady!
I think Shelli makes a good
I think Shelli makes a good point.
To be perfectly cold about this, as long as there are far and away more cats than there are homes to take them in, you can be only so picky about placement. The fewer cats, the harder people will be willing to try to meet qualifications.
But, maybe this family just needed some specific education and the email will go a long way. I thought I was doing a fantastic job of feeding my cats until I started to read your nuitrition information. I know now that I have a lot of room to improve (and hope to start taking more and more action to do so)
Here's another thought. I was watching the tape from "Seeds of Compassion". That was a program held in Seattle 2 years ago by some of our local visionaries. They hosted the Dahli Lama, Bishop Desmond Tutu and other leaders from the community, many but not all, affiliated with other religions. The theme was the importance of compassion across all sectors of society.. in our children, in the workplace, in government, in medical settings. And how do we develop it, how do we teach it, how do we get better at it? One of the panel spoke about the importance of animals in our lives, that it can be a very good way for a child to learn to practise kindness to animals in the home, to animals on the street. I look back and realize how important it was that my mother had very strong feelings about what we owed to animals and passed that on to me. How I passed the same values on to my child when he was a toddler and how he still treats animals kindly. How I share my opinions with my stepsons and daughters-in-law about how a child must not be allowed to chase a cat who wants privacy, how a child must be supervised around an animal to learn a gentle touch, that an animal has a right to scratch if it's wish to be left alone isn't heeded. And every act of compassion, of empathy, is a seed that grows our awareness and makes us incline toward deeper compassion. We become more concerned about the health, welfare, comfort of our pets. The more we learn and do, the more we want to learn and do. So I seek to improve my animal's diets and living conditions even though I've already got animal who receive compliments from the vet about their condition and demeanor.
Where I'm going is, I don't think we even want to demand that each person who adopts comes complete with a Phd in compassion. Provided they are in good mental health and reasonable intelligent, as their relationships with animals progress they will become increasingly concerned about the creatures and also the humans around them.
That said, for YOU after giving these particular cats so much care over the past few months, you could hardly be blamed for being very protective. You earned that with tears and hard work. But maybe, things are going to turn out better than you think. And if you want to keep in touch with the new families and model a little compassion.. what can it hurt?
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